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Sermon or Monologue

My pastor's sermon; is it a sermon or monologue? What is a sermon? Is it the same as preaching? What does a pastor preach? His own words? If it were his own words, it would be a monologue, where no one as a say, where they are forced to listen to what a person is talking about.  A monologue is a conservation with oneself without any input or backing of outside sources like for example, an interjection or a disagreement.  No one in this world is forced to listen what they don't want to hear for this is the reason why free will exists; to do what we want to do, no matter the consequences that might follow.    Pastor preaches God's word. but for what purpose? To edify, to build, to shape ones thinking. What I think or what you think is not applicable to God's will. In God's will there are no buts and no excuses; one must come out of comfort and face the reality that is life. Do you regard your time as precious and valuable? or do you just waste it like it has no purpos
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Negligence

How am I that God calls his own? Who am I that God came to this world in human form to suffer and ultimately  died for me? I haven't gone to church since this health crisis started back in March. I haven't opened my Bible since March. I can only go as far as God permits. He has control of everything that I do. If it wasn't for Him, I wouldn't be married now, there wouldn't a baby on the way.      For me to fall away as east is from the west, it only takes one choice. Everyday we make decisions and those decisions are what shapes us, for the better or for the worse; but in all of that, God is in control.     My life is hanging by a very thin thread and if I'm not careful, my life as I know it will be very chaotic. Right now, my life is going smooth, but bumpy  in a spiritual sense. Sometimes I ask myself when I will turn back to God. I've been very negligent when it comes to reading my Bible and attending church (I do say my prayers now and then). I re

Long time no see....

Good morning to whomever is still following me in this little corner of mine in the web. So many things have happen since last time I was on here. In a very suspicious way, the virus that originated in China or somewhere else, has taken over the world like it was nothing. No one was prepared, not even the big companies with thousand and millions of employees (is there such a company with millions of employees?) Anyways... I owe it to God because my life is what it is, if it wasn't for Him, I wouldn't  be married now and if it wasn't for him (why give thanks to devil?) I wouldn't have my job even though someone else gave it to me so I can distance myself from the One the lives and gives life.  God was been so awesome with me, I don't deserve it. I don't deserve anything that I have now. I live because of Him and not because of my choices. I know that He has everything in control, which is why I don't always pray when I'm about to drive because

New Month

What ever happen in the past two months is already forgotten, the past did that. Everything in the past are only distant memories of your falls and shortcomings. Leave everything in the past; do not succumb to the same thing like you did in previous months. Confessions and change is what your soul really needs; The Word of God can do so much more but you must be willing to do a full circle. Oh how I wish that I can stop sinning, there was a moment in my life when I asked God to take me, to kill me so can stop sinning and to stop letting Him down.  This corrupt body will never go away and how can I live with it? Mi concupescencia siempre me tumba, y aveces he querido quedarme tirado; para que continuar viviendo si voy a seguir pecando? Everytime that  I fall short, I tell myself; no more. In one month I fall short again. I really need to learn what it means to truly repent, maybe knowing that I will stop sinning. 

Aligning myself with God

When I don't read my Bible, I misaligned myself from God, I start loosing interest into what He loves; but there is the Holy Spirit that nudges me, that pushes me to not stop going to church. I need to start aligning myself with God so that I can my first love back, soul-winning and helping out at church like I used to. I may never be the same as  I was before, but being slightly like I was before is worth the victory.  One needs to be careful into believing too much of what one can do and what one cannot do. One needs just to obey and the rest will play out like how God wants to.  I need to figure something out fast before I  take a turn for the worst.    

God's Patience

How can one know when you have tried God's patience again and again and again? He has given me so many chances and every time I fail to take it. Sin and temptation are always close behind me, waiting on me to make una burrada in which I will drop bottom and never get back up. I have had hiccups but every time I get up again and I try and try to regain my foot hold but those hiccups always happens. They happen because my focus is not on God or in my church, my focus is to get enough rest and sleep so I can work well for Vons. I need to focus my strength where it matters, in God's vineyard. God hasn't discipline me yet because of my hiccups brought by temptation and sin and of not having dominio propio; of having my flesh and its desires in check.   If I don't get those hiccups in control and my flesh in check, sooner or later I will find myself in rock bottom and  my friends and family will giver their back to me; that will be when God's patience has run out

About yesterday.

Parties or gathering can really depress me. I don't see the sense in being at place for a very long time just chatting it up, because I am not the typical chatting mouth. I am terrible at parties; when I'm in a room with people, it feels like the walls are caving on me and I "suffocate", before I show a sign of depression or "angry" I just bolt; I don't say bye. Yesterday I tagged along with a brother of mine from church because he was invited to a "party", once I get to place that people have already showed, I hesitate to enter (even with people that I know) I ate and I'm done, nothing more to do, just wait until its over but with convivios like this one, they get long... I just don't get it why they last so long. We got there like 7ish, I didn't last long, but they did, maybe they came home around 10ish... so much time.... I guess I need to change, but why can't I be myself? Why can't  I keep to myself? When I